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Spicing things up with an emotional dump

So here’s the truth: I built this app during baby naps and breastfeeding. Usually my daughter falls asleep on my chest, and I’m typing one-handed, laptop balanced, trying not to wake her. My days are spent quiet at home while my partner ( a nightshift ER nurse ) catches up on sleep.

It’s been hard, mentally and physically. Lonely. Building this app became the perfect distraction.. a little light at the end of the tunnel, a reminder that maybe I can still have a career while mothering full-time.

If I’m honest, my chest tightens whenever I think about my “dream job.” Right now, it feels impossible to imagine doing anything outside of mothering when I have to stay quiet all day, structuring my life around naps. But in a perfect world, where I could shower whenever I want, sing out loud, and hire a nanny so I could tick away on my laptop, I know exactly what I’d want.

I’d love a role in Product at a company that’s building tech to make the world better. Likely a psychology app. I want to serve others while exercising the restless creative muscle that can’t sit still. I feel most in my element when I’m networking, creating, working with clients to improve something holistically, and collaborating with a team to build and scale.

Through building my own app, I’ve worn every hat: designer, product manager, tester, and storyteller. I’ve proven I can design and ship meaningful products even in the margins of the day as a new mom. I thrive on shaping ideas into something real, refining them through feedback, and connecting them to a community. At the core, I want to use technology as a force for good. I believe there are tools still being made that empower, connect, or inspire people.

I’m still learning how not to burn at both ends... and not to fizzle out completely either. The app has been good for that balance: I can quietly build and respond to users in the margins of the day, and still make progress.

Anyway, rant over. Thanks for reading, void.

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